How I studied the Four Noble Truths 2  

我是怎样修学《了凡四训》的(2)

Thirdly, I practised the Four Noble Truths in the face of adversity. November 97 to July 2001, the period when I entered the workplace and formally engaged with the dyed-in-the-wool society. It was also a time when my faith in the Buddha and the Four Noble Truths was tested. The psychological confrontation during this period could be described as very intense, with the normal logic of the world really confronting the theory of Buddhism and the concept of Buddhism. It can be long to write about, because every detail of our lives contains whether or not we can apply the Buddhist theory, the Buddhist philosophy, and stick to it. One of the more useful things for you to refer to during this period is the way I practice wealth giving.

   Wealth giving: although wealth is a thing outside the body, we all want to seek it. At the beginning, I didn't have the thought of seeking wealth because I heard Venerable Jingkong say, "Giving wealth for three years will have an incredible effect". In order to repay the Buddha's kindness and the support of everyone who helped me, and because my master gave all the money away each time, I soon got back what I had given away, and I saw more of it with my own eyes, which touched me deeply. Because I believed in my master, in what I had seen with my own eyes, in Venerable Jingkong and in the Buddha! I have never asked for money, I just think it is natural to reap what you sow and reap what you sow. I think that young people are only asking for money to buy a house, to get married, etc. I only need to give seriously and the Bodhisattva will naturally arrange for someone with this blessing to marry me. At that time, I also calculated a financial account. My salary was less than 30,000 yuan a year, and I had to pay off debts of nearly 10,000 yuan from my studies, and I also had to pay for daily expenses, and sometimes I had to run the back door, so if I got married at the age of 30, I would only have 210,000 yuan for seven years without food and drink, and an empty, unfurnished house would cost at least 300,000 yuan. This is a "big gamble" for the sake of repaying the kindness, and for the sake of the Buddhist theory of wealth giving and the normal logic of the world - saving. A terrible "gamble"! A long mental battle! A confrontation between a person who is serious about giving with the Buddhist concept of giving, who has no concept in his head of how to give money, and the atmosphere created by everyone around him who is investing in a house or doing business after work! "If I win the bet, Buddhism wins, if I lose the bet, I have nothing! In the process of "gambling", not only do you have to overcome the difficulties of giving, but you also have to have the faith to eliminate the pressure of your surroundings! Because you are not giving in a Buddhist atmosphere, you are giving in the real world, full of utilitarian ideas!

   Financial giving is mainly: buying VCDs of sutras for people to watch, buying sutras for people to feed, buying video players for the monks, giving a few dollars to a homeless person on the road, buying things for the monks, buying things for the children at the orphanage, helping a friend in a crisis 。。。。。。 From the time I got paid until the end of 2000, I would not have more than $3,000 in my pocket at most. Really did it for three years!

    A few of the more touching and difficult things that can be done.

   1, 99 years of flooding, the unit to collect donations of clothing. I not only gave out my own clothes, some of which I was wearing, my beloved clothes, but also went around asking people for clothes, and at that time I also planned to go to the village to buy people's useless clothes (anyway, I did it for everyone, a little thicker skin, a little bit of suffering is nothing, everyone can be warm on the line - this was the idea at the time). In total, I collected three sacks, one to two hundred pieces of clothes, and I washed each piece of clothing very carefully and straightened them with an iron to show respect to the recipient (my clothes had never been ironed at that time) - this was the difference between offering and giving (i.e. respectful or not), trying to achieve the best results with the least amount of offering.

   2. Long-term almsgiving, I did not have much money in my pocket and the only winter clothes I had were a set of underwear of over $100 was to keep out the cold. It was the end of 1999 when a guest from Guanghua Temple came to my home and I entertained him. His hometown was from the north and he was going home, so I asked him if he had enough clothes. He said he could still withstand the cold. I said that it was very cold on the train, so I offered him my only set of warm underwear. To show that I wasn't trying to buy new ones and to show that I was sincere in practising almsgiving, I hadn't bought or worn thermal underwear for two years (I am weak and am very cold) and being cold in winter was too much to bear! But this is a good time to exercise my mind! However, since I give alms so often, I can't afford to buy a $100+ set of thermal underwear! And I have money to help people, but I have to buy a pair of motorbike gloves to protect against the cold wind, but I have never bought them, so my hands have been frozen by the wind for years!

   In the winter of 2000, two young girls came out to look for work and were tricked into stripping naked and robbed of their belongings on a remote hilltop in the name of job recruitment. At that time the two young girls took off their ropes and the man down the hill found clothes for them to put on. When I accepted the case, I first poured boiling water to let them warm up, and after making a statement, took 20 yuan to let them go home and asked if it was enough, the little girl actually said it was not enough and wanted 60 yuan. I also gave it to them, asking them to share it with another girl (another girl my colleague was taking a statement) and asking them not to tell my colleague. In the meantime, I gave her my only slippers again. I didn't buy any more after that, and my colleague and I shared a pair of slippers afterwards (which we used for several months). At the same time I did, as it were, instruct them to come out and look for work when they got home and to come to me so I could help them find a job, but they didn't come to me.

   4. In the summer of 2001, I was ready to start buying a house because I was looking for someone. When I decided to buy a house I had more than 10,000 yuan on me, of which 8,500 yuan was borrowed from others and 5,000 yuan from a friend. When it came time to buy a house, I had to pay a down payment. I didn't have any money on me. I had to borrow from others, but it was hard to borrow money. I shed tears over this! The down payment was at least $60,000, where could I borrow, or if I did, I couldn't afford to pay the mortgage ($1,800 a month for 20 years, and my salary was less than $2,000), how could I pay back over $60,000! A normal person at this point in time would be looking for a dawg to ask for money! But instead I did something that touched me and could have touched everyone! I thought to myself that my friend had just borrowed money from me at a very difficult time, and the money had just been borrowed, and his salary was very low, so I didn't want him to suffer any more, I could suffer more, because he was a Buddhist student, I would help him on behalf of the Buddha! If he can pay me back later, he can pay me back, but if he can't, forget it! (Note, looking back now, I am very proud of myself, and a month or so after this incident, my blessing appeared and I told him clearly not to pay me back).

   5, once a monk master to buy the same thing, I was out of money, so I borrowed from my classmates just like 600 yuan, first buy, first give charity. Because we receive a salary of not afraid.

   6. I don't have much money myself, but I always say to people who receive alms offerings, "Don't be afraid, come to me if you are in trouble!" Actually, I feel a bit weak in my feet when I say this, because I don't have much money, but I want to give them confidence and hope!

   The embarrassment caused by financial giving: the above-mentioned financial giving looks easy, but the embarrassment and hardship of giving money to an empty pocket is difficult to put into words. Because my pockets are often just under $500, mostly $300, I am always worried about how I will cope if something happens! When friends came over and had to entertain, it was always the most stressful time for me as I was always worried about making a fool of myself by not having enough money to pay. When I was in a relationship, I rarely went out with my former lover but when I did go out once, I was always nervous about whether I'd have enough money! There were times when I had to go out on business and had no money to borrow from my mother and was reprimanded. (My heart was heavy at the time, not because I was upset at being reprimanded, but because I was worried that my mother would create karma by trying harder to earn money.) I borrowed from my sister, ran into trouble, and came back sad and in tears! It was not a large sum, just a thousand dollars!

   The reward after three years of giving is more than I can imagine! I'm not going to say how much the reward is, but I have written about it in my article on FateSelfLegacy.com! The house is a small high-rise commercial house with a lift, and there are several T-shirts that cost 700 or 800 dollars each. That's all I have to say about financial charity!

   Good deeds in the public sector.

   1. Using my position, I find jobs for foreign workers. Because of my job, I worked at the grassroots level for a year and had access to factories. Sense called the Buddhist disciples urgently and said that someone without a job could come to me. Because I thought at the time, Fan Zhongyan feeds 300 families with his salary, can't I also feed people by finding jobs for them! Because factories generally want skilled workers, and people generally cannot find jobs because they do not have the skills, through my introduction, the factories have to sell my face, so that they can learn from what they do not know. The ones I introduce are usually more practical, and once they have learnt the job skills, it is easier for them to stay honest, making it a "win-win" situation for the factory and the workers. If I encounter a worker who does not have a job, I will tell them to come to me and I will find a job for them. Although I would sell a little smile and say a few kind words because I was looking for a job for a foreigner, or even make people feel that you are mixing with this kind of foreign workers and look down on me, it is worth it to help a person's livelihood and suffer this kind of hardship! In a year's time, I have introduced a dozen people to me! Some even wrote greeting cards to thank me!

   2. Applying the education of Buddhism to my work. I was tired of working on a case and had to put in more time and effort than others. After arresting a suspect, I have to do their ideological work in addition to interrogating them and educating them not to come out to commit crimes again. Moreover, I have to take special care not to handle unjust cases in my work, and I have to be especially careful when trying cases. Sometimes when there is a conflict between law and morality, I have to refer to both the law and morality. Once, I caught a man and woman doing that in the mountains. The case could be basically qualified and we were going to get our 1,000 yuan bonus. But I felt whether there was a possibility of an induced confession, and the woman in the case said how difficult it was for her family. I was soft-hearted and rushed to get the phone to let her call, telling her to hurry up and find connections to get out. Then the leader saw me and criticised me, but the person was released, I lost my bonus and got K'd again! Once, I caught a woman who specialized in stealing money and belongings from people who visited the hospital. In a two day and two night battle with her, she lost at the last minute! I did some more ideological work on what she was going to do when she got out later. After nearly a month, the woman came to me and said she was now on the right track, opening a dumpling shop and thanking me (verbally)!

   3. I take interrogation very seriously when dealing with suspects! Personally, I think that you have violated all beings and if I don't handle it seriously, you will harm the people again in the future.

   4, for general cases, many colleagues are haphazard, but I have been very serious in handling, try to protect the rights of the victim. Once did a, lost mobile phone case, gambling credit, the phone returned, people I do not pursue, the victim also sent a banner, both sides benefit. But I was laughed at by my colleagues! But both credit, I will never pursue the suspect, only through his hometown told him not to do such things again!

   5, to the fight dispute case, I stand on the weak side! But this is a lot of work to do!

   Wife seeking road.

   1. Change of mind.

   A. The disadvantages of seeking a wife are numerous. I have been in Buddhism for a long time and have very little contact with society. I am not very eloquent and do not know how to please girls, let alone talk to them, and when I do, my mouth gets tied up and I am not fluent. Nor does he know how to dress up, nor does he have the money to do so. I don't know where to go for a relationship (that's why I rarely spend money on relationships, I've been on a few blind dates and spent less than a thousand dollars), and in case I go to such places, I get nervous because I don't know how much money I have to spend and I'm always worried about not having enough money. And I also have the thought of not seeing more people in pairs (on a blind date with a girl I was introduced to) for fear of hurting the other person. I don't want to go and hit on random people of a similar age in a relationship style just to improve my relationship skills. Keep the thought in mind that you would rather hurt yourself than the other person in a relationship. Because I'm so Q, I think there's Buddhism to soothe our injuries, and others? It's always me who gets hurt that way all the time! My family has a bad reputation, so if someone came to investigate my family background, they would scare away ten of them, and I don't have to be very good to find a partner, but they have to be filial to my parents and support my Buddhist studies. But for these shortcomings, except for eloquence I can train hard, I have no other tricks.

   B. Although I know that there are many shortcomings, I always feel that seeking a wife is a selfish wish and I dare not ask the Buddha and Bodhisattva for it, but only have a subconscious in my heart somehow, saying what should I do? Once in 1997, when I was chatting with my Master, he suddenly asked me if I had found a girlfriend. I was so happy that Master finally opened up the conversation first, and I was so compassionate that he cared so much about his disciple's daily life. I hurriedly said that I was not capable, that I was not financially well off, and that I was worried about what I had been saying for a long time. The master said, "Don't you chant the Goddess of Mercy? You can ask Kuan Shi Yin Bodhisattva. If you can't, let the Goddess of Mercy manifest one to you! This was my first basis for asking for a wife! (I have never recited Amitabha with my masters since then, but apart from karmic problems, there is another reason why I have asked for a wife. (And as I am a person whose destiny is to have a bad marriage, I am very afraid of bad marriages - choosing to practice the Dharma, this vow has something to do with it, but not all!) Although I knew in 1997 that I could ask the Bodhisattva for a wife, I always thought that asking for a wife was a selfish and self-serving wish, and I never dared to say it. It was not until 2000 that I suffered from a herniated disc in my lower back. This meant that I would not be able to do the heavy work that ordinary young people can do, and would only be able to do light work, like an old man, and it also meant that I would never be able to do good deeds as I had done before (my fate had not changed, and I wished I had a good body to continue doing good deeds!) . And because of the hard work, my face is wrinkled and I look like an old man. The financial strain, the emotional torment, the difficult illness, and the harbingers of old age forced me to seek a wife. Practising the Four Noble Truths in adversity mostly meant that this was the time. Because I had been doing good deeds for nearly seven years, and in return for this kind of reward, I could not mentally bear it for a while.

   C. A new prayer was attached to the request for a wife. So, in July 2000, I asked a friend to take a vow of good deeds in Dizang Chamcha for 1,000. Recite the three parts of the Puranas daily. (I don't know what else to pray for.) I asked if I could have a partner of my choice next year, and if I could have something auspicious to ask for. I was very happy at that time, thinking that auspicious meant auspicious, and beneficial meant that this wife would bring me good fortune. I had heard that Master Yin Guang's instructions for seeking a son were very spiritual, so I wrote a request for a wife, and on 29 November 2000, I formally asked for a wife, and projected all my changes and requests for blessings onto the request for a wife (i.e. I hoped that the fruits of my good deeds in recent years would be presented in the request for a wife).

   First, to abstain from touching wives who are not one's own, and to repent of the evil deeds of adultery committed from the beginning of time.

   2. Vow to do a thousand good deeds.

   Three: To quit smoking.

   4. To persuade my mother to devote herself to praying for Buddha's life and to be reborn in bliss.

   V. Repent before the Buddha for any wrongdoing and try to rectify it.

I have also set five criteria for my wife, and ask the Bodhisattva to give me the criteria for my wife

   1. Be filial to my mother

   2. to support me in my study of Buddhism

   3. to make up for my financial situation

   4. To help me in my future

   5. She doesn't have to be pretty, but she has to look good

 三、在逆境中实践《了凡四训》。97年11月到2001年7月，这段日子进入单位工作，正式与社会这个大染缸正式交手。也是考验我对佛菩萨的信心，对《了凡四训》信心的时候。期间心理的对抗可以说十分激烈，世间的正常逻辑与佛法理论、佛法理念真正对抗。写起来可能很长，因为我们生活的每一个细节都包含着是否能把佛法理论，佛法理念运用起来，坚持下去。这期间比较可以让大家参考的就是我修财布施的方法。

   财布施：财虽是身外之物，但求财大家都很想。我刚开始是没有这个求财念头，就是因为听了净空法师说的“财布施三年，会有不可思议的效果（大意）”。为报佛恩，报大家支持帮助我的恩情，而且受到我师父每次都是全部布施的，但很快布施出去的东西又回来了，而且来得更多的亲眼所见，让我感触很深，当时我又是单身汉，也没啥考虑，念头是布施得越光越好！因为我相信我师父，相信我的亲眼所见，相信净空法师，相信佛菩萨！对财方面我没有求过，仅是认为种瓜得瓜，种豆得豆，很自然的！而且我个人认为，年青人求财无非就是要买房子，结婚等用，我仅要认真布施，以后菩萨自然会安排一个有这方面福报的人与我结婚，“物与类聚，人与群分”嘛。当时还算了一笔经济账。我工资一年不到3万元，又要偿还求学时欠的近万元债务，还要日常开支，有时又要跑后门，如果结婚是30岁，7年不吃不喝也才21万，一套没装修的空房子至少也要30万元。这样一为报恩，二以佛法的理论－－财布施得财富与世间正常逻辑－－储蓄进行一次“豪赌”。一次可怕的“豪赌”！一次长时间心理的较量！一个认真用佛法所说的布施理念去布施，脑袋里根本没有如何嫌钱的概念和周围大家在投资买房子、工作之余做生意所产生的氛围之间的对抗！“赌”赢了，佛法胜利，“赌”输了，我一无所有！在“赌”的过程中，不仅要克服布施的困难，还要有信念去消除周围环境给你带来的压力！因为你不是在佛法的氛围中去行布施，而是在充满功利思想的现实社会去行布施！

   财布施主要：买讲经的VCD给大家看，买经书供养大家，买影碟机给出家众，见路上流浪人给他少数钱，买东西供养出家众，到孤儿院买东西送小孩，帮朋友于危急。。。。。。从领工资起到2000年底，口袋最多不会超过3千元。真正做了三年！

    几件比较感人、难行能行之事：

   1、99年发大水，单位要募捐衣物。我不仅把自己的衣服，有的正在穿的、心爱的衣服也布施出去，还到处向人家讨衣服，当时还打算到村子里收购人家没用的衣服（反正我为大家，脸皮厚一点，吃一点苦不算什么，大家能暖和就行－－这是当时的念头）。总共收集了3麻袋，一、二百件衣服，而且每件衣服我都很认真地洗一次，还用熨斗熨直，以示对接受方的恭敬（当时我的衣服还从没有熨过）－－这一点是供养和布施的区别（即恭敬与否），力求以最少的供养取得最佳的效果。

   2、长期布施，我口袋没有多少钱，冬天的衣服仅有一套100多元的内衣是在御寒的。当时是99年底，有位广化寺的客人到我家，我招待他。他老家是北方的，他要回家，我问他衣服够吗？他说还可以抵御寒冬，我说火车上很冷的，就把自己唯一一套保暖内衣供养了他。为表示不是想买新的，并表示真诚修布施，我两年没有买，也没有穿保暖内衣（我身体弱，是很怕冷的），寒冬被冷得实在受不了！但这却是锻炼我心性的好时机！不过，由于经常布施，说实在要买一套100多元的保暖内衣我也真舍不得！而且我有钱帮助别人，但是要买一副摩托车手套，防寒风，却一直没有买，让手被风冻了好几年！

   3、我在办案中偶尔也有帮助那些弱势群体。2000年冬天，有两位小姑娘出来找工作，被人以招工为名骗到一偏僻山头，脱光衣服，抢走财物。当时这两位小姑娘脱开绳子，山下人找了衣服让她们穿上。我受理案件时，先倒了开水让其暖身，做完笔录，拿20元钱让其回家问够不够，那小姑娘竟说不够，要60元。我也给了她们，要求其要与另一个姑娘同分（另一个姑娘我同事在做笔录），并要求她们不要告诉我的同事。同时，我又把我唯一的拖鞋给了她。之后没再买，而后我和同事共用了一双拖鞋（用了好几个月）。同时我就象也有嘱咐他们，回家后要出来找工作，来找我，我可以帮她们找一个工作，但她们没来找我。

   4、2001年夏季，我当时因为准备找对象，准备着手买房子。在决定买房子时我身上有1万多元，其中8500元借别人，5000元借一道友。当要买房子时，要交首付款。我身上一分钱都没有。要向别人借，但借钱难啊？！为此事，我掉了泪！首付至少要6万多，我哪里借，就是借到，我支付按揭款就受不了（一个月1800元，20年期，而我的工资不到2000元），6万多怎么还！一般人在这个时候一定会找道友讨钱！但是我却做了一个让自己感动，也可让大家感动的事情！我当时想，道友也是在十分困难的时候向我借钱，而且钱刚借走，他工资又很低，再苦再累，我都不想让其再受苦，我可以多吃点苦，因为他是学佛人，我要替佛菩萨帮他！以后他能还我就还我，不能也就算了！（注，现在回想起来，很自豪，而且此事过后一个多月，我的福报现前，并明确告诉他不要还我了）。

   5、有一次有个出家师父要买一样东西，我当时没有钱了，就向同学借了就象是600元，先买，先布施再说。因为我们领工资的不怕。

   6、自己没多少钱，但是总是对接受的布施供养的人说，“别怕，有困难来找我！”其实说这话，我脚有点软，因为我没多少钱,但是我要给他们信心和希望！

   财布施引来的尴尬：上面说的财布施看上去很轻松，但是财布施使钱袋空空如也的尴尬和艰辛，却是难以用语言来来表述。因为口袋经常仅有500元以下，多数是300元，所以总是担心如果有什么事情，我如何应对！朋友来了，要招待，总是我最紧张的时候，因为我总担心钱不够付而出丑。在恋爱时，我虽然很少与以前的恋人出去，但出去一次，总是很紧张，钱是否够？！有几次因公务要出门，没钱向母亲借，被训斥一番，（当时心里很沉重，不是因为被训斥而难过，而是担心妈妈会因更加努力赚钱而造业），向姐姐借，碰了一鼻子灰，回来伤心得流泪！数目不多，仅是一千元而已啊！

   三年布施后的果报，却是我不敢想象的！果报多少，就不说了，但在命自我立网我写的文章多少有写了一点！房子是带电梯的小高层商品房，T恤七、八百块一条的有好几件。。。财布施就写到这里！

   公门中的行善：

   1、利用职务，为外来打工人员找工作。因工作关系，我在基层工作了一年，有机会接触工厂。感紧打电话给佛门弟子，说有人没工作可以来找我。因为我当时想，范仲淹用工资养活300家，我为人找工作，不也能养活人吗？！因为工厂一般要熟练工，一般人找不到工作就是因为没有技能，通过我介绍，工厂要卖我的面子，让他们从不会学到会，我的思想是让富人仅浪费一点时间和资料，却可养活一个人甚至一家人。而且我介绍的，一般又较实在，工作技能学会了，也比较容易老实待着，使工厂与工人达到“双赢”。日常工作中如果遇到没有工作的打工人，我都会告诉他们来找我，我为其找工作。虽然我会因为为外来人员找工作，卖一点笑脸，说几句好话，甚至让人感到你怎么和这种外来工混在一起而看不起我，但能帮一个人的生计，吃这种苦，值得！一年时间，经我介绍的也有十几个！有人还写贺年片感谢我！

   2、把佛法的教育运用到工作中。我办一起案子很累，要付出比别人多的时间和精力。抓了一个犯罪嫌疑人，我除了审讯后，还要做他们的思想工作，教育他们不要再出来犯罪。而且工作中要特别注意不要办冤案，审案子也要特别认真。有时遇到法律与道德的冲突时，我既要参照法律，又要考虑道德。有一次，我抓了一对在山地里做那事的男女。案件可以基本定性，我们1000元的奖金也要到手了。但是我感到是不是存在诱供的可能，案件中的女子还说她家里有多困难。我心软，赶紧拿电话让她打，叫她赶紧找关系出去。后来被领导看到，批了我一顿，但人还是被放了，我奖金没了，又被K了！有一次，抓到一女子专门偷到医院看病的人的钱物，被我抓了。与她面对了两天两夜的较量中，她在最后一刻输了！我又对她以后出来要怎么办，做了思想工作，过了近一个月，那女子跑来找我，说她现在走正路了，开了一家水饺店，还谢我（口头）！

   3、面对犯罪嫌疑人，我是非常认真在审讯！个人认为，你侵犯了众生，如果我不认真办理，你以后还会再祸害百姓。

   4、对于一般的案件，很多同事都是草草了事，但我一直很认真的办理，尽力维护被害人的权益。曾经办过一起，手机丢失案，赌信用，手机还了，人我也不追究，受害人也送了锦旗，双方得益。可是我被同事笑了！但既讲信用，我决不会追究犯罪嫌疑人，仅通过其老乡告诉他以后不能再干这种事！

   5、对打架纠纷案，我站在弱势一方！但这样办起来是很吃力的！

   求妻之路：

   1、心态的转变：

   A、求妻缺点重重。我长期间在佛门中转，与社会接触非常少，口才不好，也不懂得讨女孩子欢心，更不懂得和女孩子交谈，一谈嘴巴就会打结，不流利。而且也不懂得打扮，也没钱打扮。对社会一些场所如咖啡厅、餐厅等恋爱的必要去处，我都不清楚，不知道要到哪里（所以我谈恋爱很少花钱，相亲了几个，花费不到一千元），万一到这种场所，我都会因为不知道要花多少钱很紧张，总是担心钱不够。而且我还有一个念头，不和人多对看（与介绍的女孩相亲），怕伤了对方。不想为提高自己的谈恋爱能力，而去随便和年纪相近的人以恋爱方式搭讪。在恋爱中，保持一个念头，就是宁愿伤了自己，也不要伤了对方。因为我很阿Q，认为我们受伤有佛法抚平，别人呢？！这样经常受伤的总是我！还有我家里人名声不好，如果有人来调查我的家景，那来十个会吓跑十一个，还有我找对象又要求对方不一定条件很好，但要孝敬父母，支持我学佛等等，这些都是我找对象的缺点。但对于这些缺点，除了口才方面我可以刻苦训练外，其他的我自己都没招。

   B、虽然我知道缺点很多，但总感到求妻是自私之愿，不敢向佛菩萨求，仅是在心里莫名有个潜意识，说要怎么办？也不敢为此事问师父！97年有一次与师父闲聊时，师父突然问起我找女朋友了吗？我非常高兴，终于由师父先打开话匣子了,师父好慈悲，竟然关心徒弟的日常生活到那么细。我赶紧说，我能力很差，经济不行，很担心等憋在心里已许久的话。师父说：你不是念观世音菩萨的吗？你可以求观世音菩萨呀？！实在不行的话，让观世音菩萨变现一个给你！这是我求妻的首个依据！（我后来一直没有也没与师父们一起念阿弥陀佛，除了因缘问题，其实还有一个原因就是观世音菩萨的愿中有求妻一愿！而我是命注婚姻不顺之人，我很怕不顺的婚姻――选择修学法门，此愿有一定关系，但不是全部！）虽然97年就知道可以向观世音菩萨求妻了，但是总是认为求妻是自私自利之愿，一直不敢说出口。一直到2000年，饱受感情折磨的我又患上腰椎盘突出之病，我当时呆了。这就说明我不能做一般年青人能做的重活，会象一个老人一样，仅能做轻活，也暗示着我再也不能象以前一样做善事了（命运还没改变，我多希望有一个好身体继续行善啊！）。而且因为工作辛苦的原因，脸上的皱纹也多了，象个老头子一样。捉襟的经济、感情的折磨、难缠的病痛、未老先衰的先兆，把我逼上求妻的路上。逆境中实践《了凡四训》大部分指此时了。因为行善了近7年，换来这种果报，心态上一时承受不了。

   C．求妻被附加了新的祈求。于是，我从2000年7月让朋友用地藏占占察誓行善事一千.每日念普门品三部，。。。（不知道还许什么）问明年可否有如意伴侣出现，得有所求得吉利。我当时很高兴，认为吉代表吉祥，利代表这个妻子可以为我带来福报。并听说印光大师求子疏很灵，就参考求子疏，写了求妻疏，并于2000年11月29日正式求妻，而且把福报的改变和求索都投射到求妻上（即希望近年来行善的果报能在求妻上附以呈现），发愿做五件事，
   一、不沾碰非己之妻，并忏悔无始劫所犯之邪淫业.
   二、誓行善事一千.
   三、戒烟.
   四、力劝慈母专心念佛往生极乐.
   五、一有过错,尽力在佛前忏悔,并尽力改正.
并把妻子的标准订了五个条件，求菩萨给予我妻子的标准
   1、孝敬我母亲
   2、支持我学佛
   3、弥补我的经济
   4、对我前程有帮助
   5、不必漂亮但要看得过去。
并制定功过格，如是行持，很尽心去做，但做了三个月，还是过大于功。自己算一下，按这样下去，一千善事何时完成，完成之后我也七老八十了。怎么办。。。此时对自己的布施有点后悔，但想一想，就是存钱不布施，我到现在也不到5万元的。一套房子最起码也要30万。可是我几乎没钱布施了，身体又是腰椎盘突出，想体力布施也不行了。 几年来的磨练的感慨以及果报呈现前黎明前的苦难的折磨，再加上为了面子问题及各种复杂因素，我去准备订了一套房子，在准备订房子时，一分钱也没有，但一想起以前的感应，认为佛菩萨不会扔下我不管，就去向人借钱付了订金，这房子便成为一个无形的可怕的压力，压得我几乎喘不过气来。虽然我知道佛菩萨不会不管我，虽然我坚信佛菩萨会用其他方式解决我的困难，但毕竟果报还没现前。这些压力压得我几乎让我失去对佛菩萨的信心、失去对了凡四训的信心，让我连佛号都念不出来了（没信心），对自己以前的做法进行反思和怀疑，是不是做错了。这时，我能用得上的就是净空法师讲的《了凡四训》讲义，心情差时，我就看一看。再看一看《观世音菩萨本迹感应颂》，来增强对佛菩萨的信心,有时不想看，也要强迫自己看。这是我当时能增强信心的仅有的两件法宝，高深的道理对我当时起不了作用。特别是俞净意公给我的榜样对我最有激励性，因为俞净意公未改造命运前的果报是很少人会遭遇的。我当时就想，再怎么样，我还有一口气，可以干点轻活，就到寺庙里做卫生，专挑脏活干。心里动摇时，我就会想：改造命运是很苦的！但有一点要牢记，不改会更苦。因为这一点信念，在我最困难的时候促使我往前走。在希望和渺茫的对抗中，心情的差别我写过两首诗。一首是有信心：屡败屡战志不移，以苦攻苦争朝夕。北辙南辕效愚公，感天动地命方始。一首甚至是丧失理念的：愚公感天恍隔世，理念如梦难追回。苦泪洒地凄探路，平平庸庸一市侩。两种截然不同的心灵撞击太可怕了，我都不敢回首。但不管多没信心，我总会问自己不去实践佛法，努力改造命运，我又能如何呢？！我别无选择！改一点算一点，不求满分，但求及格，实在不行，得一分算一分，反正总是赚。于是我就死猪不怕开水烫，好，最晚33岁嘛，好，努力改造最起码可以提前三年。（心理的对抗，此时不仅是求妻了，而是改造整个果报，当时认为，不是说果报呈现有多重要，而是对我理念的考验，如此辛苦的做事，换来了这样的结果，我很担心自己是不是走得不对、做得不对！但怀疑归怀疑，做照做，在这心理如此激烈的对抗中，我前面说的布施5000元并决定不向道友讨还，就在此时几天前。当时我很害怕黑夜，因为夜深人静时，我总会思绪万千，为我以后担心，理念的力量提不上来，以后怎么办？！能打发黑夜的思绪的，就是拼命看《了凡四训讲义》和《俞净意公遇灶神记》及《观世音菩萨本迹感应颂》）。做到果报呈现时的前几天，袁了凡先生也不效仿了，因为我认为他的做法太慢了，要学就学俞净意公了，因为他做得真诚，果报也快，要学就学俞净意公了，否则来不及了！以前诵经那股恭敬的心态要重新用起来！但没等我真正学习俞净意公，果报现前了！2000年11月29日开始发愿、开始记功过格，到2001年7月22日找到对象，才九个月啊！，不可思议！而且后两个月我几乎是在心理斗争中度过，善事也就少做，佛号也少念。而且九个月功过相抵，乏善可陈，订课也时常没完成，到现在我还欠菩萨好多债啊！而且佛菩萨太慈悲了，本来我都不想相亲（我自己算卦是不成），可以说是佛菩萨制造奇怪的机缘让我相亲的！相亲完，我选择不时，又是佛菩萨让我做梦的！（详见命自我立网的写疏行善求妻篇）。

   C、对于选择对象，因为我本来已做好让观世音菩萨作媒的心态，所以在判定是不是终身伴侣，总是对观世音菩萨说“成则快成，不成则速离”。不成决不奢望！这一句话很灵的！

   几点花边：1、我在找对象时，很不主动，因为我总感觉佛菩萨会帮我介绍，都是凭感觉，看看这个有可能是佛菩萨介绍的吗？！。

   2、找对象时，对对方的家庭背景等世间追求的东西看得较轻。我看重的是是否能支持我学佛，是否能孝敬父母，是否有爱心。这一观点在求的过程坚持较好。

   3、恋爱时，我追求的是不伤害对方，宁愿自己心里多受一点创伤，因为我们受伤有佛法抚平，别人呢？！

   4、求的过程有不好的念头产生，但一下子就被纠正过来，却为此付出心里苦痛的代价！

   5、在选择是合还是分的时候，我是让菩萨帮我选择，“成则快合，不成则快分”――这样可以减少双方的痛苦，此法很妙、很灵！

   修学方面：
   1、发了与观世音菩萨在普门品的愿，因为有愿在身，所以做事情都追求尽心尽力！因为个人认为没有观世音菩萨的神通和能力，再不尽心尽力去做，就不是真发愿！

   2、99年听说有大劫难，春节的头三天拜山，求世界和平，人民安康。并组织村里的小年青集体念观世音菩萨圣号，在那时体会到念佛心安、轻安、法喜的感觉。

   3在求妻的7个月中，为追求“无思无虑中感格”，每天以一万圣号为基准！（没坚持多长）

   ……

   行善也与上面第二阶段讲的差不多。

   四、果报现前后学《了凡四训》。2002年至今：果报现前，有点松懈。不时要看看佛书，想想自己发的愿，回忆以前的做法，来鞭策自己，提醒自己。

   行善方面：体力布施方面较少，因为我的文章还可以，就写一些关于民生方面的文章，如打击六合彩等，从不同渠道呼吁政府对一些民生问题的重视，并提一些建议供政府参考。钱物布施次数可能少一点，但数量大一点，但感到布施的心态不如以前诚恳、真诚！在单位中工作，力求从百姓的角度做一些利益大众，别人又不想做的事！在行善感到不诚时，我为追求以前那种诚心，就冒寒风，亲自做饭，布施“流浪菩萨”（街上流浪汉，这一点可详见命自我立的《布施一碗饭，温暖街上流浪人》的文章）。而且感觉，在条件变好时，要把握住自己，一直想挑战自己的极限，来追求真诚心，检验真诚心，因为我认为这在改造命运、修学佛法中是非常非常重要的！

   求子：求子的重要性也就不说了！自己的方式，赶紧利用求子“骗”妻子念佛诵经（妻子对我学佛是支持的，对我行善很支持，在布施中有时比我更慷慨，但要她诵经念佛她就象很难做到，正好利用这种机会让她种一点善根——我很经常利用家里人有所求时，利用她们的爱心，骗家人与我共同念佛，争取让他们种一点善根）。妻子每天都念观世音菩萨圣号，诵《普门品》，有时很恭敬，跪着诵，比我还能吃苦，但大部分时间都在床上诵经（初学者，我也不太强迫她，而且有身孕在身）未怀孕时，有礼佛（我告诉她，这是求子一个很重要的步骤）。经常买鲜花供佛，家里供一下，有时跑到寺庙里供佛（我告诉她这样求来的孩子会漂亮）。刚开始，她没有求男的，仅是说小孩健健康康。我知道她想要男的，就告诉她要告诉佛菩萨，在祈祷时说。妻诵《普门品》，我诵《地藏经》，同时写求子疏。我知道求子要拜佛。就选择拜《普门品》，一字一拜。现一部还没拜完（我经常欠账）。求子疏妻子也有念。有时夫妻共同礼拜佛，共同诵经，很和谐，自己看了也感动！怀孕后期，我们经常共同听经，妻子喜欢听慧律法师讲经。我们有发愿做一千善事求子，但一直没记（以后要还愿）。我命中注定第一胎是女孩。我们想要孩子的时候一直要不到，后来莫名怀上了。有位道友为我算，如果妻子是哪个年份怀孕，就会是男的（我个人想，这可能与我们求的有关，也就是如果没求，可能在会在生女孩的年份怀孕。因为求了，所以因缘才得以巧妙会合）。怀孕时妻子很怕身体变得很可怕，（生小孩，女人都很怕。主要是有的体态会变得很可怕，有的变得让你认不出来，甚至有的因此而与丈夫关系不和，她就象还为此求过保持身材！）但以我妻子的经历，我要告诉爱美的女人，如果你怕这个，求菩萨，真的！这是过来人的劝告！

   心理变化：小孩出生后，我的心态变得更多，好象人世间没什么好执著的，人之所以一直改变不了自己的命运，是在于自己的惰性，不想真干！佛菩萨太慈悲了！此生不求生西方、不了生死，如何报答佛菩萨的恩德？！！我自己也从求福报的心态中，转向求了生死，认为这是关键之关键，也是我当前就要抓紧做的事，人世间的福报和行善，在求了生死的基础上去做，去尽力做！――从我个人的实践，修学《了凡四训》没什么不好的，行善求福报没什么不好的，到一定程度，仅要你有一定佛法基础，很自然就会想到求了生死的路子，因为佛菩萨的教诲和承诺的真实性都在你求福的过程中体现了，你不仅得到对佛法的理性认识，也得到了身临其境的感性认识，对往生西方你能不想去吗？而且以后的工作生活中，我会更注重从因上下手，尽量不造业，不要拖累临终的往生。同时，我也感觉净空法师所说的修学《了凡四训》，是可以达到心想事成的！

   其他行善：
   1、因腰椎盘突出，更看到医院医德甚差，药费昂贵，中医文化落后，发愿有生之年能办一所慈善医院，提倡中医。但我现在没有能力，仅能从小做起，争取每天布施一元钱（布施方法：讲求恭敬和诚心，布施前要全身洗一下，换上干净的衣服，在佛前跪着发愿，再把钱放到我自制的钱箱中）。我本来也存了近七千元，做为基金，但一想，这方法不对，应该赶紧把它布施掉，以后才可能使福报来得快一点！

   2、受《了凡四训》中讲的莆田林老太布施三年馒头的启示，想起了布施街上流浪人的做法。如果大家想改福报，改命运，此法可效仿。林老太的果报是十分殊胜的，“无林不开榜”就是林老太的果报（可详见《了凡四训》）。

   3、关于求职。很多人为了升迁，都用尽了手段，耍尽了权术，甚至无所不用其极，在这方面，我坚信了凡先生的做法。

   对了，我的职务也升了，这个就不说了，因为以后路还长着呢！命中注定我没有官位（主要依据我这边一位很有名的算命师父）。

   法门的选择：我是选择念观世音菩萨，以后我临终时，也会祈求观世音菩萨来接我。可能是夙愿的原因，我第一本接触的佛经就是《普门品》，而在完全不了解佛法时，对《普门品》的内容有一种似曾相识的感觉，第一次草草翻一下，感觉并不陌生，就象还有点熟悉。其他的不写了，怕误导大家。

   到此，整篇文章基本结束，事实上我在修学中犯了很多罪过，但怕误导大家，没有写出来！请大家记住，我是一个够不上凡夫资格，经常种三恶道因、够不上佛门弟子这一伟大称呼的罪恶凡夫！

What are the acts of abstaining from killing and releasing

 戒杀与放生的行为包括哪些

 1. Do not kill a living being with your own hands.

　　2. Do not abet others to kill.

　　3. Do not help others to kill.

　　4. Abstain from eating meat.

　　5. Do not engage in trades related to killing.

　　6、Whenever there is worship, regardless of what is being worshipped, use vegetarian dishes, flowers and fruit, not animal gifts.

　　7. If you see someone killing a human being, you should discourage them or buy the animal to be slaughtered with money and release it. If this does not work, or if the person does not sell the animal, then you should have compassion for the slaughtered animal, and even better if you can recite the Buddha's name or mantra for it.

　　8. Do not abuse the animal.

　　9、Other actions that are contrary to killing.

　　10. Abstain from killing and releasing animals yourself, and advise others to do the same. 

   1、不亲手杀生。

　　2、不教唆别人杀生。

　　3、不帮助别人杀生。

　　4、戒除肉食。

　　5、不从事与杀生有关的行业。

　　6、凡有祭拜，不管拜的是什么，一律用素菜、鲜花、水果，不用牲礼。

　　7、见人杀生，应加劝阻，或用钱将临宰之动物买而放之。若劝阻无效，或他不卖，则应对被杀之动物起同情心，若能为它念佛号或往生咒更好。

　　8、不虐待动物。

　　9、其他与杀生行为相反之行为。

　　10、自己戒杀放生，也劝别人戒杀放生。 

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Introduction to Zhuge Changqing: Zhuge Changqing, the inheritor and promoter of traditional Chinese culture, is willing to "learn from sages, promote virtue, revitalize China and benefit the world" together with people with the same ideals in the world.

(Zhuge Changqing: zhuge8031@163.com ）

Zhuge Changqing mailbox：

zhuge8031@163.com

Zhuge Changqing's Chinese Dream

Learn from sages and carry forward virtue

Revitalizing China for the benefit of the world

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诸葛长青简介：诸葛长青，中国国学传统文化传承弘扬者，愿与天下志同道合者一起“学习圣贤、弘扬善德、振兴中华、造福世界”。

（诸葛长青：zhuge8031@163.com）

Zhuge Changqing mailbox：

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